Thank you everyone who commented, and even those who didn't comment but are there -- it eases my heart to know that dear caring friends are praying for my stepmom, Pat.
She had surgery today to remove the cancer, before starting chemo, but the results are BAD.......they couldn't remove all the cancer because it is everywhere in her abdomen, it is attached to too many other organs.
This is the absolute OPPOSITE of what I was hoping God would allow. This is NO answer to prayer for me. I guess the plan is to start chemo, hoping it will shrink the cancer and they will be able to operate again and take it out. I want to keep praying and begging God to answer my prayer for her, but WHY, when I know He already has His plan in motion. He isn't going to alter what His plan is for Pat because *I* don't like it.
So how to pray??? For grace? For comfort? To keep my faith as He drags me down a very painful, unwanted path.....??
I continue to beg Him, of course, that she will be the 1 in 100 to receive a diagnosis like this and get treatment and go into remission, and then joy and happiness can return to us all. I will hang on to that thread of hope.
Please continue to pray. And THANK YOU ALL from the deepest part of my heart!